degrating &dirty;

true, it may seem like a stretch...

2004-04-11T07:20:40Z

today I wanted to go to the mall with clair, BUT her family's a bust.
then ben came over, all the way from santa ana, and hung out with me.
we ate taco bell & i video-taped him skating.
he fell and hurt himself, then we played with his air-soft gun.
it hurts, really bad.
and he punched me in the face, and my lip bled.
I gave him a welt on his back (2 actually).
we wanted to hang out with erica, but she wasnt home.
ben left, and erik got home from work.
erik, adrian, sova, & george & i went to santa fe cafe.
did nothing. came home & slept.
I am here Now. Bored. ALONE. b3lrlehdkfs

I"M SCENE WITH MY FAKE GUN.

I made this bracelet. its falling apart.

I like my cell phone in the background, making it look EVEN cooler.

ben messed up a few times.

ben.

one of the welts I gave him. (the other one was worse)

laugh all you want, he punched me.

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Name
Sexuality
Age
Most Likely to Say	"It's not that it was bad..."

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(i thought that was funny)

I want to take you far from the cynics of this town,
and kiss you on the mouth.

YOU ARE MY SECOND HAND SMOKE.

2004-04-10T00:53:30Z

do you know how hard it is to catch up with everyones very interesting Lj lives after being gone for six days? hahaha. ♥
well I went to lake elsinore with erik and my parents, but they had to drive back the forty-five minutes every day to go to work. so me and erik were left with nothing to do &no one to hang out with. we didnt really do much, not hot enough to go swimming, and not cold enough to hibernate. we watched movies, like zoolander. and played so many board games its not even funny. I had forgotten how bad I am at losing. it puts me in such a bad mood. i guess im to competitive and that sucks in games of luck. I missed being home, and it was so good when we drove back up to my house. I felt so relieved to be home. we went to the mall, cause I finally got money but left after ten minutes. no wonder I never go to the mall anymore. tonights my cousin allie's 18th birthday. I wish i was out of school. sophomoritis is the worst. not even half-way done yet. I'm applying at a job for old navy, and then hopefully getting upgraded to gap or banana republic. and thats just intil I get my esthician liscence and i can sell mac makeup to all the beautiful people. I hope everyone had a great spring break because I think we all needed this VERY SHORT BREAK.

fishy.

this duck was so cool!

it seriously hung out with us for the whole time we were there. even (especially) when i threw chips on eriks crotch.

the duck liked erik.

blue steel.

"what is this? a reading center for ants!?"

my dog and my mom soaking up rays.

scrabble.

scrabble 2.

I had no words, but sova.

we drew the coolest picture.

erik drew the sunken pirate ship and i drew the nude mermaids.

cool cave in the process.

sleeping.

looks funny.

the conversation

2004-04-03T16:46:56Z

well yesterday I dyed my hair back to brown.

well yesterday I hung out with one of my best friends, ash.

well yesterday I saw my boyfriend, erik.

well yesterday I went to plush and saw the conversation.

well yesterday I talked to this girl Jenny whos just as obsessed with mac makeup as me.

well yesterday I took some pictures:

--beatriz, ash and some girl that i never caught her name.

--the opening band.

--me, ash, and jenny.

--chords.

--the conversation.

--when heather smiles, she looks five years old.

--apple helped em out.

--favorite.

BLEEP:

-I'm pretending its summer but its really sprinkling outside.

-It doesnt feel like spring break.

-surprised?

-I don't really like it.

dream-maker

2004-04-02T06:05:58Z

spring break should come sooner.
one more day, for crying out loud.
gas was only $1 at arco today. full tank = $10
for everyone who didnt see THE FLUX, you missed out on rene &zachs first performance.

I _______ nathalie.
She is ________.
If I were alone in a room with her, I would ___________.
I think nathalie should ________.
I want to ______ her.
Someday nathalie will ___________.
nathalie reminds me of __________.
Memories of her are _________.
nathalie can be ________.
__________ is how I describe meeting her.
The worst thing about her is _________.
The best thing about her is _________.
I am ________ with nathalie!
(fill it out...please)

new hair. what should i dye it?

favorite.

abe by abe.

jon mahr.

wipe a tear and clutch your chest, cause I'm a heart breaker.

photo of a photo, done by zach lewis.

tony p.

nat♥

OMG THE OC!!!

2004-04-01T00:12:46Z

I _______ nathalie.
She is ________.
If I were alone in a room with her, I would ___________.
I think nathalie should ________.
I want to ______ her.
Someday nathalie will ___________.
nathalie reminds me of __________.
Memories of her are _________.
nathalie can be ________.
__________ is how I describe meeting her.
The worst thing about her is _________.
The best thing about her is _________.
I am ________ with nathalie!
(fill it out...please)

I cut my hair off. its off. all the way off. its really short.
really really short.
EVERYONE SHOULD GO SEE ZACH LEWIS &RENE MORENO AS:THE FLUX, TONIGHT.
PLUMMER AUDITORIUM. 7:00 PM.
$6-

countdown till spring break: 2 days.

shallow means deep ends.

2004-03-29T22:52:47Z

when will spring break finally come??????
sunday I hung out with clair and later with erik.
Today sucked. I hate school. I feel like I have sophomoritis if thats possible.
pictures of my beautiful best friend.

getting gas to speed up for choc.

getting gas is boring.

clairs so beautiful.

sequence of (bored)nathalie(listening to clair talk to justin).

we tried to make one of those hearts, but in the end we gave up:

we look naked, but we werent:

pictures taken by tony perez in 1st period:

YOU ARE SECOND-HAND SMOKE

2004-03-27T17:35:17Z

I trimmed my bangs. I chopped up the layers. I didnt dye it.
Again I have no idea if I want to cut it short again, or to grow it out again.
Disneyland was fun, and theres no pictures. I AM NO PHOTOG.
These little quizzy thingys are sort fun.
my TEN shirt came today, it smells fresh.
The toilet exploded this morning and we had to mop it up.

♥Nat. and ♥E.mart

Will conceive two gruesome girls.
Are aspiring to skinnydip.
Are Hollywood's hottest couple.

Orchestrated by ianiceboy

Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:	Sex-slave
Your Favorite Band/Song	Britney Spears - Slave 4 U
You Like To Read:	Anything political
You Firmly Believe In:	God
Everyone Thinks You Are:	An easy fuck
You Were Conceived:	Underwater
You Will Marry:	An Italian plumber

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Part 1.

1) Using band names, spell out your name:

nirvana.
a static lullaby.
the early november.
hilary duff.
armor for sleep.
lene lovich.
ima robot.
elefant.

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
yes.

3) What song makes you cry?
cursive - after the movies.

4) What song makes you happy?
The early november - baby blue.

PT. II

HEIGHT: 5'7.
HAIR COLOR: blonde.
EYE COLOR: green/blue/grey.
PIERCINGS: ears.
TATTOOS: no.

r i g h t n o w

WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?: pajama pants & a blanket.

WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: cold &early.

HOW ARE YOU? bored.

f a v o r i t e s

TV SHOW: RADIO FREE ROSCOE!!

BOOK: harry potter all the way.

NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: lemonade or rasp.iced tea.

ALCOHOLIC DRINK: anything shots.

]]]H A V E Y O U[[[

RAN AWAY FROM HOME: to my brothers house in like 8th grade, my mom knew i was there the whole time.

EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yeahhh.

MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: i miss kevin & jon. hahah.

EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: haha...i thought that was only in that one cartoon adam sandler movie that i should have never watched.

SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: not anymore.

FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: not after seeing freddy crouger! no more baths ever.

BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: romeo & juliet.

LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: all the time.

::::R A N D O M:::::

DO YOU HAVE A JOB: not yet. I will soon. OLD NAVY Here i come.

YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: the new john mayer.

IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: sea-foam green.

WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: photo, e.mart, music, random acts of kindess.

WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: THE NEW MORRISSEY!!

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

TIME YOU CRIED?: a couple weeks back or somehting.

YOU GOT E-MAIL: i checked it this morning..there were 2 lame lj things.

THING YOU PURCHASED: a taco!! i love taco bell <3333333

[[[L O V E]]]
BOYFRIEND: e.mart

GIRLFRIEND: ashlay????

CHILDREN: chloe & connor. notyet.

CURRENT CRUSH: erik.

BEEN IN LOVE?: twice.

HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yeah.

BEEN HURT? who hasnt?

YOUR GREATEST REGRET: turning a good friend into more than a friend. and messing up. completely. but its just a regret.

GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: I don't own a calender. I never know the date.

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n

ABORTION: awful but its a last resort.

TEENAGE SMOKING: do what you want. just dont think your a badass just because you smoke.

SPICE GIRLS: spice up your life 24/7. ms kudron makes me remember them everyday..spice memoribila galore.

DREAMS: to be completely carefree.

fraiscomme_fuck @ 2004-03-26T14:47:00

2004-03-26T22:48:29Z

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Name/NickName
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Sexy Body Part Is	Your Nose
Special Talents Are	Everything (Multi-talented)

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disneyland tonight. i think i am going to cut my hair tonight.
i want to dye. dye. dye: it.

organic tomatoes

2004-03-24T00:31:33Z

the show.
my birthday.
disneyland
& e.mart.

6 month anniversary lunch:

At Clairs house:

Edith Sequences:

Rufio:

Yellowcard:

Something Corporate:

I loved clutch in his pirate suit.

Lighters during konstantine.

My birthday:

indiana jones was closed...this is what we got instead.

favorite.

erik william martinez.

BORING.

big yawn.

THE END.

I CAN STILL BE RUTHLESS

2004-03-21T17:51:40Z

This is the weirdest feeling ever: I feel like I've gone back in time.
I am wearing makeup. I straightened my hair. Hahah. Iam wearing my brown cons.
Im listening to something corporate reminds me of tony in eighth grade. I think I am actually wearing lip gloss which makes me think of nora & ellyn. I am hanging out with clair tonight. wow. This is so great. I feel so little & naive.

pictures up tomorrow! and i dont have to go to school...ta-yeah.♥♥♥

this love has taken its toll on me.

2004-03-21T04:31:23Z

last night I saw eternal sunshine and it was really really good.
quirky and good.
Today I went to the photo lab & matted and hung two pictures.
After that, I went to the beach.
came home, fell asleep & kicked e.mart♥ out.

Waiting for eternal sunshine:

e.mart 1

e.mart 2

the evidence.

the beach:

sova.

ash.

the hole.

abe in the hole.

abe hurt in the hole.

ash 2.

adrian.

sova 2.

jesus.

e.mart 3

e.mart 4

the guys.

s-peak your mind 1

s-peak your mind 2

in-n-out

\
hops.

toy drive.

rootbeer + shake = rootbeer float.

the "soon to be replaced" car.

N+A=<3

intense.

backseat 1.

backseat 2.

in-n-out 2.

Poofy's pastrami (?)

The show tomorrow.
excited. I love clair munoz & she is an amazing photog.
sweet sixteen: monday.

eternal sunshine

2004-03-19T22:56:00Z

I am going to the movies with e.mart♥ tonight.
it should be really good.
can I just say: T G I F.
thank god its friday, the last couple days have been hell.
and now its the weekend, the best birthday/6 month anniversary weekened ever!
Ok. I got a new camera, and I am so excited to use it. and
AHHHH ok. I'm off to eat taco bell and collect more mild sauce packets.
why are some taco bell's conforming to white napkins.
everyone knows the brown are so much better.
♥nathalieeeeee♥

and your hands and knees

2004-03-19T00:25:56Z

HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY: I matted all by myself!!!
my birthday is coming. da 22nd
a sweet sixteen, and this weekend is going to be the best ever.
I am doing all this fun stuff that I love doing and its just the best.
tomorrow I am going to see ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND.
saturday I am going to the beach with friends, maybe.
sunday I am going to the something corporate, yellowcard &rufio show with clair.
monday I dont have to go to school & get to spend the day @ the beach with e.mart♥
these are some pictures from earlier today. most from the talented zach.
ahead of time: if there is a (*z) that means credit to Zach Lewis.

one of my favorites from today. amy.

heather murph.

random.

hands. (*z)

mat board. (*z)

emo jesus. (*z)

jons broke shoes (*z)

HA HA zach &tony (*z)

ahhhhh the shnoz! (*z)

ABE n. (*z)

cool glasses.

smiling is rare.

myles in the bkground.

HA HA HA HA HA HA

I got a new screen name.
even though I am barely online anyways.
this is why:
forget about lipstick fiesta, its so last week.
add ECLECTIC DIGITS and enjoy the peace.

yeah. thats why.

imposter OC kids

2004-03-18T01:29:33Z

We brought the beach to the street, rather the tennis courts.
yesterday was the day from hell, all hot on concrete and nothing to do.
today, everyone was PREPARED.
lawn chairs, towels, sunblock, coolers, drinks, food. the works.
the only bummer about today was they sent us back to class for 4 &5.
But most didnt go to fourth.
Lexi, Lauren, Hillary, Ell, and Nors &I set off to do something else.
we all piled into laurens car, but hillary was lying on top of us cause there was lack of space.
ell and nora went to get in ells car and then we waited...
and waited...
and they didnt come, so we left.
we traveled far &wide and ended up @ "the market" and bought bread and cheese.
anyways, fifth sucked. I hate geometry.
heres some cahsee pictures.

this is where the party was at.

girls.

bridgefords funny face.

badass.

this is what troy kids are doing after the test. re-enacting the test. step by step.

nora &ell.

jacob.

jonathan.

bodies.

read-a-lot.

carrie &sean. pretzils in jamba juice.

twister 1.

twister 2.

twister 3.

twister 4.

I worked on drivers ed for like 2 hours today, im only a little over half done.
Its so frustrating!
why couldnt CAHSEE last all week?

boy

2004-03-17T00:44:51Z

conform. believe. anything. on tv.
find your identity soon. and let the channel change you.

Boy Blitz 1

2004-03-15T22:53:11Z

"so heres how it went down. she rolls up.
I said to her, 'take your clothes off.'
she goes, 'why?'
'cause thats what publicists do.'
we were men. we were real men."
-ace.

random.

DarkStarClair: shush your mouth nukka!
lipstick fiesta: Nah nah NIG. you shutcho mouf
DarkStarClair: shutupyomouth!
lipstick fiesta: fuckah checkz outz meez LJ cause its so rad :-P HEEEheez

come back my baby blue

2004-03-13T21:44:59Z

It literally took my breath away. I stopped. and almost got hit by a car. I remember listening to it and thinking "god, this is me" and crying. over you. this is fucking weird.

(i think that was the most personal, random thing I have ever actually written down.)

the biz-each 1

2004-03-12T22:46:14Z

I am going to the biz-each and its gonna be good.
I love green grapes.

Name a band/artist that...

Reminds you of an ex-lover: cursive &coldplay.

Reminds you of an ex-friend: something corporate.

Makes you sad: smashing pumpkins

Makes you laugh: britneyspears.

Makes you smile: the format

You never want to hear again: aqua.

Sums up your teenage years: somerthing corporate &rufio.

You want to get married to: ben kweller.

You like to wake up to: Bowie.

You like out of your parents record collection: velvet underground, hendrix, floyd,
tears for fears, supertramp etc.

You love that you wouldn't know about if it wasn't for a friend: brand new.

You love the video more than the tune: george michael - faith.

Reminds you of your first crush/love: blink182

Reminds you of your now crush/love: peter frampton

Makes you think of sex: IMA robot& queen.

Makes you think of being alone: elefant.

Has only been released recently but you love already: brand new

Are embarrassed to admit you like: Hilary duff.

Perks you up: anything n.e.r.d.

*The past couple days have been so weird, but I drank coffee this morning and started tripping out (i never drink caffiene) and everything seemed so good. so i figure that i should drink coffee every morning & think life is awesome and do all my work in class/ I think I like being laid-back way too much to be perky.

california, here we come.

2004-03-11T01:46:11Z

I really REALLY wanted to go to static lullaby today.
I really REALLY want to go to the beach.
I really REALLY don't need to be semi-grounded.
I really REALLY want a new book.
I really REALLY need to drive.
I really REALLY love erik.
Pictures from yesterday.

Zach & jesus.

falling.

re-build. (credit to zach-photog genius.)

he;s a robot 1.

he;s a robot 2.

he';s not a robot.

kung-foo.

laugh a lot.

social d.

happy couple. read &relax.

framing.

jesus.

walking home

shadows.

tree.

thats california.

saves the day. I just missed them.
camera-shy. I need one.
beach. beach. beach.

-n.

bubbles o O o oo O oONE

2004-03-09T06:18:20Z

It was my moms birthday. I think she is amazing.
Erik knows how to make bubbles out of soap and his bare hands.
true talent, i tell you. true. talent.

little bubble.

medium bubble.

huge bubble.

...

washing.

random.

sleepy.

sleepy. 2.

sleep. together.

sleep. together. 2.

what a great day. even though its hot...like really hot outside.

naked t w 2 o

2004-03-08T05:58:33Z

Heres some pictures from the whole weekend.
Friday, in photo.
Friday, at the beach.
Saturday, The conversation.
Sunday, with Ellyn.
Sunday, with Erik.

PHOTO:

i sleep.

the table.

Zach. Flux.

conceited jesus.
THE BEACH:

on the way.

the sky #1

the sky #2

the sky #3

the beach.

the beach.

at the beach.
BEFORE THE CONVERSATION:

sova.

jesus.

erik &adrian.
SUNDAY W/ ELL:

ell laugh.

sunglasses.

ell.

squirt.

wet feet.

my favorite.

running.

the little girl.

legs.

ell.

alone.

the little girl #2.

the little girl #3.

tanning.

walking home.
SUNDAY AFTER ELL:

erik.

erik #2

erik #3

erik #4.

Thankyou ellyn for giving me the best girls fun day I have had in a while.
especially when the car broke down and we had to push.
Today was good. and it sucked.
I have been feeling so down lately, and tonight i just broke down.
I need lots of sleep & lots more time.
goodnight.

black&white o n 1 e

2004-03-06T23:06:34Z

my bangs are getting long, and I;m debating whether to trim them or not.
i;m hoping this means my hair is growing.
I got a pretty shirt at goodwill today.
Its yellow. rich orangy-yellowey... marigold...
I went to the beach yesterday.
It was so cold. and we forgot a blanket.
I still havent made my friendship bracelet.
I'm seeing the conversation tonight @ plush.

my "sweet sixteen" is approaching.
it seems so nostalgic to do anything about it at all.
I'm thinking about ignoring it completely.
I dont really want anything.
wait, i want lots of things.
But forget that. be reasonable, right?
"bad seeds come and go, for which you must allow;
sick down to my heart, thats just the way it goes."
you said it Stephen/P/M
i feel so yuck...
I havnt been wearing makeup for 2 weeks straight
and today, when i got all primped, with nothing left to do...
the makeup came out.
I washed it off ten minutes later.
I feel like theres nothing to write about.
I have been keeping a real journal and writing almost daily. if not more.
and I miss my ipod. its charging.
I need to take pictures for hands&feet.
The phones ringing.
calm. just calm.
I feel so blah. I am writing nothing that nobody's going to read.
I just feel like typing. do you get that feeling?
Like theres nothing to do but type and write and move your hands?
maybe its cause I'm a fidgett-er.
I hate when im in class and I get all this pent up energy and just start flailing my arms and legs about the room, releasing it.
its so...distracting.
I want independent studies next year.
I want a job.
I want a year off.
I want London on winter break.
I want beach house in summer.
I want a break.

-n.

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Your Name
You Are A:	Indie Elitist
Your Favorite Band/Song	Aerosmith - Walk This Way
You Like To Read:	The backs of cereal boxes
You Firmly Believe In:	Abstinence
Everyone Thinks You Are:	A respectable person
You Were Conceived:	In a record shop
You Will Marry:	The high-school slut

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naked t w o

2004-03-05T02:47:25Z

I tried to make a friendship bracelet. I failed.
I think I might do the 48 hour fast tomorrow and saturday.
I think my face is clearing up.
I don't really like orange juice as much as I used to.
I feel like listening to the format.
I need a hug cause its cold and I feel yucky.
I have felt yucky all week and so down.
I hate french & geometry.
At least I won;t have to do it next year.

naked 1

2004-03-03T00:17:33Z

NAT'S PICTURES

jesus: sleep.

jesus: hands.

zach: frown.

zach: wee-gee status.

ryan: du-rag #1.

ryan: du-rag #2.
JESUS' PICTURES

conceited jesus.

clouds.

sicilian room.

telephone stop.

accident.

buddies. (he really is asian)

drunk fiiviiveve

2004-02-29T01:32:22Z

heather taught us how to color.

jesus' creation.

this is heathers abstract photo.

thats heather.

abe had saturday school.

abe's skateboard.

cut. cut. cut.

we made a birthday card for rupp.

my jacket looks better on him (toggles!)

goodbye jesus #1.

goodbye jesus #2.

leopard jacket.

leopard jacket "photo-shopped".